Today was the hardest days of my life. The one I loved have left me. Im here writing this to him.
To the love of my life,
im saying this today, ever since we met I knew you would be the guy for me, I knew you would be a great father to our kids, I knew that we would be happy. I imagined my whole life with you. I imagined having more kids, having a nice house, having a cottage we would go to every holiday, having family vacations, going out as a family. I really messed things up big time. I pushed you away, our families were to much involved and I lashed out on the wrong person. I love you and I always will. You have my heart and sole with you. Please dont break it. Its already smashed into a million pieces. There are racing thoughts going in my mind saying I dont wanna live, I dont wanna be without you, I dont wanna be here in this world where everyone hates me and doesnt like me for who I am. I may need that push to do something but I need to do it on my own. I need time to mentally be there when Im not here, Im not myself, I dont think I ever will be. You were a good guy. You were always there, you provided for me and the kids, you were loving, caring, and just a guy who I fell inlove with. Im not trying to guilt trip you in any way shape or form, but I do wanna work this out if your willing to. My love for you is there but I dont think I can be friends at this moment for now now you will be Sophias dad and we will talk about the kids. Please just think everything through and maybe we can work this through together. I love you.